Just not the way I wanted…

I tried my best to forget that I even know you. I sit in class just trying to concentrate on my work and then suddenly your name is either mention or its in a text that I’m reading. Then everything just starts again. I swear this is not the way I wanted my day to go.

No I’m not fine..

Am I okay? Of course not. I’m literally dying inside. I’m obviously not okay when you start talking about her out of no where when we are in a middle of a conversation. You just bring her up and then everything turns in to a whole different conversation about how much you love her. I’m tired of this shit. You said you will stop talking about her with me but I guess you dont mean what you say. Just dont talk to me if “She” is all your going to talk about. Your just using me to get information about her. You know what? FUCK OFF ! I’m totally done with you. Just stop talking to me ! -_-

It was just a lie…

You text me and said you are sorry for all that you have done, for being so horrible to me, leading me on, and breaking my heart. You say you want to go back and fix everything and just by you saying that I feel like things will get better but then just a few hours later you turn around and go back to breaking me down again. Everything you had just said to me about being sorry was obviously just a lie and now I dont know what to do. I want to cry but I didnt cause there were people around me. I didnt want to break down in tears in front of them. I want to go and and just forget everything. Forget everything we’ve been through, forget everything we had, forget that we had even met. I dont know what to do anymore. I feel like everything in between us and the memories were just a lie.